Totally Bored!

Lifes a Sham.

I am so bored!

All my life I studied and I am still at it. It seems never ending. I just want to start working so that I have enough money to really do something I might have interest in.

I might become a Programmer sometime, but I have spent so much time waiting to become one that I dont want to do it anymore. There is something called too much of a good thing and too much of a bad thing. Now I know there is also Too much of waiting.

Life seems so meaningless! I cant imagine what I will be doing an year from now.

Sure I will be working. May be even draw a six figure income. But what will I be really doing? Entertainment via television is equivalent to self inflected brain Damage. Books are something better, but even they cant keep u going for long. What I need is a proper hobby. SOmething that will really interest me.

Gaming might be a good passtime, but it only kills time. Its not productive. I could takeup some social cause, but I am not driven by that. Human misery does get my sympathy but not intrest. It can maybe propell me to send out a mail, but to get me out of my chair, it will have to happen to me. Maybe something that I can do with my hand. Like craft or somekind. Carpentry, photography....

All fun but ultimately pointless and so not lasting.

I could learn learn about investing in the market, but whats the point without money to invest?
Maybe I could become more intrested in the events that affect the world. Learn about what might be happening in different cornors of the world and trace their implications. Then possibly I could become a fellow conspirosy theorist who sees a pattern in every event that happens.

All in all, I am lost. Possibly without hope or chance of revival. The sad part is, I dont even believe in religion, so cant even waste my time by following the illogical ideas that might allow me to possible apotheosise if not atleast make me feel that I am not killing my time.