Totally Bored!

Lifes a Sham.

I am so bored!

All my life I studied and I am still at it. It seems never ending. I just want to start working so that I have enough money to really do something I might have interest in.

I might become a Programmer sometime, but I have spent so much time waiting to become one that I dont want to do it anymore. There is something called too much of a good thing and too much of a bad thing. Now I know there is also Too much of waiting.

Life seems so meaningless! I cant imagine what I will be doing an year from now.

Sure I will be working. May be even draw a six figure income. But what will I be really doing? Entertainment via television is equivalent to self inflected brain Damage. Books are something better, but even they cant keep u going for long. What I need is a proper hobby. SOmething that will really interest me.

Gaming might be a good passtime, but it only kills time. Its not productive. I could takeup some social cause, but I am not driven by that. Human misery does get my sympathy but not intrest. It can maybe propell me to send out a mail, but to get me out of my chair, it will have to happen to me. Maybe something that I can do with my hand. Like craft or somekind. Carpentry, photography....

All fun but ultimately pointless and so not lasting.

I could learn learn about investing in the market, but whats the point without money to invest?
Maybe I could become more intrested in the events that affect the world. Learn about what might be happening in different cornors of the world and trace their implications. Then possibly I could become a fellow conspirosy theorist who sees a pattern in every event that happens.

All in all, I am lost. Possibly without hope or chance of revival. The sad part is, I dont even believe in religion, so cant even waste my time by following the illogical ideas that might allow me to possible apotheosise if not atleast make me feel that I am not killing my time.

Angel....

I saw her standing next to the window. The day was warm and sunny, the air humid. There was not a hint of wind, the barometer had toped. There was a heat wave going on that had made life miserable.
But none of this seemed to touch her. The shutters were down but not folded. Sunlight was streaming in. She was looking to her left. The light seemed to bounce of her face... kissing her, adoring her, making her look radient. Her golden hair trickled onto her face, swaying magically, touching her cheeks. Her pure white skin, seductive. She turned and I saw her deep blue eyes. Her beautiful red lips arcked slightly toward the right. She had a thought in her eyes, a deep longing on her beautiful face. She was standing there, with her arms folded, in her beautiful black shoulder dress looking angelic.
It was the summer of 2008. I didnt know who she was, where she was from or where she was going. But I knew I wanted too. Few times in life do we have such a clear perseption of what we truly want. Your mind clears, your brain stops. There is only one thought, one emotion, one moment. Life is a set of memories, some seem to have a deeper impact than others. Some are moving, others graceful or funny. Some give you a sense of achievement, elations. Others of sorrow or loss. And then there are some that words cannot explain. Those are the one that get imprinted forever. You can never explain them, but you can feel them a century later just the way you felt the first time. Its pure. Beyond joy, sorrow, anger, lust, beyond every known emotion. Its when your mind, heart body and soul become one. When you just know. Thats what I felt that Summer afternoon, watching her. An angel among men.

Survival of the fittest ---- Group

Human species has dominated the planet since they came into existance. We are a species like none other. Looking at the human society purely from a scientific prospective, we find a very high survival rate. We dont have any natural predators and the danger to our life is mostly from mocirobes and ourselves.
This I believe goes against Survival of the fittest. Darvin said the ones most fit to survive the current conditions will dominate. Human species seems to disagree. Everyone of the species has the oppertunity to create offsprings. They need not be the fittest, neither physically or mentally. Our species progressed because of our intelligence and adaptiveness.
We were able to use our skills and mental powers to first adapt to the sorrounding and then later change the sorroundings to fit our needs. Now we have covered the entire planet. The question is who all survived. And the answer is everybody. The requirement for survival could have been ability to think, ability to adapt to the environment, the ability to fight some desiese. But as a group we made certain that none of it mattered. Some of us might have had resistance to some desiese, the ones with brains made certain we could reproduce it so that everyone survived and the ones physically fit kept us entertained.
So what about evolution. Are we still evolving? Maybe we are. But it is different from the kind of evolution that we might have once had, atleast in the rate if not the kind itself.
During our initial evolution, our aim always was to survive, against nature and predators. Now neither is a problem. We have developed enough to either negate the effects of environment or to remove it completly. As all can have offsprings so the intelligence quotient has more or less stagnated.
Physically are we changing? Other than surgical removal of certain parts of our body which we might no longer need, we dont really do any changes to the physic itself internally. Externally, we have peoples with all sizes and forms. Thin, fat, well toned, malnurished. Even different species of the same species and mixed breeds. And all of them surivive and have off springs.
So as a group, the Human species has made certain everyone survives and maybe even put a break on evolution.